-I thought you were all about the “big picture,” the “meant to be,” and the “everything happens for a reason.”

– I was.  But, it’s different now.  I feel different now.

– Why?  What’s so different about now?

– He hurt me more than I realized.

– And, so now you think about it differently?

– Yes.  I think so.

– So, what’s so different?

–  It just isn’t getting any easier.  The pain isn’t going away and it actually hurts more each day.  I don’t think I knew what I was saying before, but it is all starting to sink in now.  It is much worse than I realized. He hurt me more than I knew at first, and more than I let myself admit.  I protected him and defended everything he ever did and never put myself first. 

– I’m so sorry.

– Don’t be. It isn’t your fault.

– I know, but still – I feel bad for you.

– That’s exactly it, though.  Please don’t feel bad for me.  It isn’t helping.  I feel bad enough.

– Wait, so you don’t believe in all that destiny stuff anymore?  That’s such a big part of who you are.

– Nope.  I guess not.

– He’s a jerk.

– I know.